I finally got myself to write a journal ..never thought of myself as a person who'd open up their thoughts for everyone to see but i guess there are somethings just meant to be shared.
Has been a while since i worked on a piece and the craving to get absorbed on creating something new.. something radical becomes stronger and stronger as the weekly rut goes on. Slowly but surely i have observed an unquestionable drive to stop trying to be realistic with my creations ... why be realistic?? Yeah that requires skill and talent and i respect people who have that quality.. but i cannot ignore the boundless nature of art via individualistic expressionism. Take the events of a random day for example, we have our opinions and feelings that we mouth out all the time but if you've really observed the events of the day at a second level of perception, all those byproducts of a transactional flow of thought vanish...what i mean is the input/output quality of our brain ceases to exist as it itself finds that meaningless and unnecessarily chaotic. At this point an observation made is an observation strongly absorbed without any prejudiced thoughts or instant reflexes ready to fire at will within the unaware and ignorant product of years of conditioning a.k.a the human mind ... This is where for ME artistic expression falls into place...even though my art is still a tad bit immature, i feel that through art one can fluently express those observations that cannot be done using words...